The next day on my way back from a walk at the track near our house, my wifecalled to tell me one of the lawn cutting boys was knocking at the front door.
"The guy from last night?"
"No, the other one."
"Don't answer the door, I'm on my way back now."
By the time I got home the boy was gone, she confirmed it was the other boy from the lawn cutting duo, the one who did all the talking. I waited around for about ten minutes to see if he would come back then left to go get some "ghetto fish," from Horace and Dickeys.
I cut through the alley down the street looking down the back alley I saw the boy and two others on bikes at the back of our house.
"Mr. Clare, Mr. Clare, when you want me to come cut the grass again,” shouted, pedaling toward me. Of the things I prepared myself for this was not one of them. Before I could say anything he spoke up again. "It really don't need it yet, it's kinda short."
Listening to him talk reminded me of the obvious--this was a little boy. His voice, high pitched, almost cartoon like came with a smile bright with eagerness.
"How about on Friday?" was all I could think to say.
"What time? I get out of Summer School at 12:30. I could come between one and six."
“What are you the phone company, come at two o’clock.”
There were two conflicting things at play with inviting him back to cut the grass. One was that I was potentially inviting back one of the boys involved in stealing the bike and allowing him the opportunity to plan more mischief at my families expense. The other was that he was not involved with the incident at all and by cutting him off I was doing the whole guilt by association thing. Of course I decided to put on my “save a kid” jersey and see what I could see.
The boy showed up a little after two on Friday ready to cut the grass. Before he got started we sat on my front steps and I asked him if he knew anything about the robbery. He said no, but looked away and then down at the ground. I asked him if his friend was involved. He said he didn’t know anything about that.
We continued to sit quietly for a little, the air felt damp and I knew was coming.
“I’m going to let you cut the grass because I want to support a young man trying to make honest money, but I don’t want to see your friend again.”
“Ok,” he sat a little while longer then got up to get started.
When he was finished we sat on the deck in back, under the canopy as the rain started to fall. I told him there was one other thing I wanted him to do before he got paid. He was quiet surprised when I broke out a chess set and started setting up the pieces.
He learned the game very quickly and we spent about 40 minutes playing. Whenever I complimented him on a move, or he got something right, that big smile would take over his face.
While we played we talked, well, I asked questions and he answered. Turns out he is going into the 9th grade at Spingarn High School. I tried not to cringe when he shared that, Spingarn is one of the worst high schools in the city, and asked him if he had looked at other schools, which he had not. When I offered to show him a couple other schools he replied, “I don’t want to go nowhere.” So I left it alone for the time being.
The rain let up as we finished the last game and I enjoyed that clean, after rain smell. I paid him then we walked around the side of the house where all the commotion had taken place a few night before. The last question I asked him was what he wanted to be when he grew up.
He put his hands on the lawnmower, paused a bit, then said, “I just want to have a regular life.”
When you hear something you really don’t expect, it takes a couple seconds to respond while your brain processes what you just heard. In those few seconds I got a clear picture of the life he did not want and a clear picture of the life he did want and most of all it was clear he understood the difference between the two.
“Come see me again.”
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Ours is an envionment where evil is perceived to be rewarded while good is punished. As with everything the Gods have a reason for creating this perception::::
People who fall on the good side of the good/evil scale have more favor, and when they do something wrong the Gods punish them BECAUSE THEY WANT THEM TO LEARN. The Gods want them to receive this feedback in hope they make corrections and begin to behave appropriately. The Gods DON'T like evil and refuse to grant this feedback.
EVERYBODY pays for what they do wrong, only evil people must wait until their next life before they will experience the wrath of the Gods, manifested in their reincarnation as a lower form of life into environments with increased/enhanced temptations.
Sadly, this allows the Gods to position this perception of evil rewarded as temptation, one which they use as an EXTREMELY effective corruptor.
Both Africa and the Medittereanean are regions which have sexual issues. This is a sign of morbid disfavor once you understand that females are the God's favored gender. Muhammad's (Mohammed's) polygamy halfway through his life as a prophet was preditory. Now a huge percentage of Muslims believes in male superiority and that the abuse of women is God's will. Female genital mutilation is still practiced in Africa. Black misogyny is the most eggregious example in the recent past.
The patriarchal cancer spread throughout Europe because of Christianity, of which the majority of policy makers were Italian men.
Militancy in Africa is consistant with the Iraqi example, as was slavery and the KKK here in America:::Fear enforces proper behavior. Without it we see what happens as a result of gross/morbid disfavor:::::AIDS, crack babies, dead young men in gangland retaliation killings.
The same principle was true in Europe and throughout the world for centuries:::People whom lived under iron fists were conditioned to think the right way. As a result they experienced higher numbers of children accend into heaven because they were taught to think and behave appropriately. Our preditory envionment of "freedom" was the primary purpose the Gods had when implimenting this strategy that is the United States, one which they used to spred the cancer of democracy and westernization throughout the world. And the Gods use this tool that is America to prey on the disfavored both at home and abroad.
Even the Old Testiment is not to be taken literally, but the Gods do offer clues throughout to help the disfavored:::The apple is a tool of temptation used to corrupt Adam and Eve and cast them out of the Garden of Eden.
There is another lesson to be learned from this passage, and it is quite similar to the vailing issue and the discourse over women's attire which ultimately died in the 70s:::Women are responsible for and control the fate of mankind.
The masculinization of women experienced in the last few decades should cause despondancy and desperation:::It illustrates the deterioration of mankind's collective favor and is a clue the Gods are preparing for some event.
Think about what I say. Consider what I teach. Society is going to become disturbingly ugly as we approach the Apocalypse due to spiralling, runaway disfavor.
I do not know when this will occurr, but it is the God's way to grant some time before they end on Planet Earth.
Make the decision to always be good and never look back. Until you do this technology will employ tactics to test your resolve:::Ridicule, beligerance, doubt and refusal to abandon what people perceive to be their "investment".
Pray daily. Think appropriately. Too many are confident, unaware of the God's awesome powers or their status as antients. Others may fall prey to their positioning.
Be humbled, God-fearing and beware of the God's temptations, for everyone is tested to evaluate their worthiness.
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